And now, Deep thoughts

Back on October 15 it was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. As you know I have lost a baby at 20 weeks into a pregnancy. This was a very hard and devistating thing for us to have to go through as individuals and as a family. It impacted us in ways we never thought possible. Baby Rix is buried in a cemetary and I go there as often as I need to. Every time I go, I grieve and mourn the loss of my baby. I think it is a natural and healthy thing to do. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. I often wonder, who he is with in heaven, who is up there holding him, taking care of him and loving him until the day comes that I get to do that. Although I never met him, he holds a great big spot in my heart.

November 15 was National Adoption Day and the month of November is Adoption Awarness month. I have seen so many members of my family and friends build their families through adoption that I am greatful for all the birth mothers and fathers out there who know that there is something more out there for their children. And give other people who are unable to have birth children the chance to have an amazing family.

The point of mentioning these two things together, I am often amazed by adoption. Last night I was looking at a family members blog who is fostering 2 children along with 3 of their children (one by adoption) and I thought to myself, I wonder if the birth parents of the fostered and adopted children in the world grieve and mourn the loss of their baby every day too. Do they often wonder who is holding and loving and taking care of their child. And if they do know who is doing all this, do they wonder how good they are at doing it? While I have a great respect and appreciation for adoption, I look at my own children every day and think there is NO way possible that I would be able to walk away from any of them.

I am a very lucky mom who has been blessed with wonderful children. I am thankful for them and for all the trials that they put me through! I only hope that they know how much I love and appreciate them and respect them for who they are and what they have become so far. They are the center of my world, and I can't imagine my life without any of them.

Enjoy these pictures of my cute kids, I know I'm biased, but I love em!

Chelsey and I were enjoying some time chit chating on my bed together, I love it when she wants to talk to me about life!

Kaylix has discovered where Riley keeps his hats!

And he models them daily!


He also likes to climb on anything and everything that he possibly can! That is why I call him my Monkey, he is so busy and into everything, he keeps me hopping!

I love it at night when he is winding down and will sit with me and snuggle! Isn't he cute!

Chelsey after finishing her homework the other night, she is so smart and doing so well in school, I am so proud of her for all her hard work.

Sunday, we were killing time

and Corbin was killing his popcicle stick!

This is how Keegan was killing his time on Sunday! Hooray for naps!

Kaylix was napping through lunch time, so when he woke up, he was starving,

man he loves Corndogs!