My love / hate relationship

Chelsey and I have this love / hate relationship you see I love her and she hates me. How could I say that you might ask, well, it is simple really, she tells me this all the time. I don't think a day has gone by the last year and half that she has not said this to me. She is a big firecracker with a very short fuse. She tests me everyday.

She loves to push my buttons!

I hate it when she does

I love to know what she has done during the day.

She hates that I ask so many questions, and I am in her life to much.

She loves to make her brothers scream.

I hate when she makes them scream!

I love to ask her for help.

She hates when I do because I never let her do anything that she wants to.

She loves to yell at me that I am the worst mom ever, and I ruin her life.

I hate it when she says this to me, it makes me feel like crawling under a rock and staying there.

I love to spend time with her.

She loves to tell me that I never spend time with her and all I do is yell at her and send her to her room.

She loves to play with her friends, but tells me that I never let her play.

I love when she plays with her friends!

I love her very much.

She hates me because I think that she is horrible and she does everything wrong all the time.

Here is the hardest part, I have never ever said any of these things to her. I constantly tell her how much I love her and how proud I am of her and I thank her all the time for her help and I make a big fuss over her because she "feels left out as part of the family because she is the only one who is in school all day" (her words). I have tried and tried to work on her self esteem, for some reason, she lacks it. We have never held her back from anything, we want her to try everything and anything that she wants, we have tried to let her learn through experience, but some where along the line, it all went terribly wrong. She is only 7 years old, I am not looking forward to her teen-age years.


But then, there is also this flip side to Chelsey. She is the biggest helper and almost every day she makes me a card that says I love you. She has the biggest heart and loves to make people happy. She will usually do anything that you ask her to and she always asks what she can do to help. I told Riley I think she has multiple personalities! I really do love her so much and I think that she is one of the best things that ever happened to me.


Chelsey also started softball, last night was her first game! Here are those pix.

She loves to play catcher!

Theres a swing and a miss, a swing and a hit, and her on 1st base. She really is enjoying softball this year and she is really good at it too! Maybe whacking that ball will help her get some of her anger out!